DownrangeFuture
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At my daughter's psycology appointment on wednesday she was diagnosed as having asperger like symptoms. Although the way it happened gave me plenty of reason to take pause.
At any rate, this is how it happened. I was staring out the window looking at the way the clouds were formed. It was breathtaking almost the way they rolled out and were only black on the very bottom tips of the waves. The sunlight shone through the lighter part of the clouds in streaks and just looked amazing with the misting from the clouds. The muted sunlight hit the building across the river and made the tan color of the bricks just pop.
Wait., I thought to myself, I should be listening to the shrink, she's talking about my daughter after all.
I turned around to see the Dr looking at my hands. I had been fidgeting with them. I had the middle finger on my right hand twirling in my left palm. So, I started rubbing my hands on my pants, embarrassed.
"So, dad, what do YOU think about all of this?" she asked me.
What do I think about what? Oh, right, daughter... "I personally don't think there's anything wrong with her. She's a bit extreme in her emotions sometimes but that's just something you learn to deal with growing up. I mean, she's really just like me."
"Yes she is. She has signs of AS. You were diagnosed with a depressive disorder, yes?"
"Yep."
"And I'll bet your meds work for awhile and then stop working for you, no matter how big the doseage is."
"Yeah."
"Perhaps your depression is a symptom, not the core condition."
She then went on to describe issues my daughter would likely face growing up and what other conditions often suddenly appear in people with AS(aspergers syndrome). And she made it clear that we believe that AS is a genetic gene, possibly dominant. After exhausting research (It's all I've done since the appointment) I came to believe in her hints that I might have it. I can only say this because I will most likely never meet you guys. I can also see it in my father and grandfather. And clinical depression of various severities is a common comorbid condition of AS.
So, now I need to figure out how to tell my doctors they might have got my diagnosis wrong and probably fight the concept that only children can have AS. For some reason, some doctors seem to think that people who were kids before the diagnosis became offical can't have AS. Seeing how AS is on the high end of autism... you can't just grow out of that.
And I'm rambling. So, here's these quizzes just for fun. And my results! No obligation to post yours or anything. But I think it's fun. (Neurotypical results are in brackets)
BAPQ: Autistic/HFA [Neurotypical]
AQ: 41 [0-20]
EQ SQ-R: 3 for EQ and 98 for SQ end result: Extreme Systemizer. [This should be balanced]
EIQ Test: 55 that puts me in the 0.18 percentile. [155-255]
HSP: 16 [14 or less]
I scored a 28 on the Reading the Eyes test meaning that with the low EIQ score I can read faces well enough, but have a hard time doing so in fluid or dynamic situations. [Normal is 20-32]
Aspie Quiz: 149 AS, 61 NT [Should have a high NT and a low AS score]
RAADS-R: 169 [21.8 average for NT people, my wife scored a 38]
In the end it's nice to know why I don't understand social situations, or I'm unable to tell when someone is going to be offended by something I say or ask. It's like trying to speak a foriegn language to me.
"Parlez-vous Francais?"
Umm... Ah... "Je parle Fracias en peu? I think..."
So, to cap my ramble off, here's a little comic Dude, I'm an Aspie!
EDIT: And the first commenter is an ass. If I could act normal, don't you think I would? I realise that everyone lands somewhere on the autusim spectrum, but when it's made it so that I don't have friends, and I hate hanging out with people from work cause they'll just make fun of me... Or when I hate going to church solely because of all the people there that insist on talking to me. Throwing off my schedule makes me meltdown, or come really close. That becomes an impairment, and you should know if you have that impairment.
At any rate, this is how it happened. I was staring out the window looking at the way the clouds were formed. It was breathtaking almost the way they rolled out and were only black on the very bottom tips of the waves. The sunlight shone through the lighter part of the clouds in streaks and just looked amazing with the misting from the clouds. The muted sunlight hit the building across the river and made the tan color of the bricks just pop.
Wait., I thought to myself, I should be listening to the shrink, she's talking about my daughter after all.
I turned around to see the Dr looking at my hands. I had been fidgeting with them. I had the middle finger on my right hand twirling in my left palm. So, I started rubbing my hands on my pants, embarrassed.
"So, dad, what do YOU think about all of this?" she asked me.
What do I think about what? Oh, right, daughter... "I personally don't think there's anything wrong with her. She's a bit extreme in her emotions sometimes but that's just something you learn to deal with growing up. I mean, she's really just like me."
"Yes she is. She has signs of AS. You were diagnosed with a depressive disorder, yes?"
"Yep."
"And I'll bet your meds work for awhile and then stop working for you, no matter how big the doseage is."
"Yeah."
"Perhaps your depression is a symptom, not the core condition."
She then went on to describe issues my daughter would likely face growing up and what other conditions often suddenly appear in people with AS(aspergers syndrome). And she made it clear that we believe that AS is a genetic gene, possibly dominant. After exhausting research (It's all I've done since the appointment) I came to believe in her hints that I might have it. I can only say this because I will most likely never meet you guys. I can also see it in my father and grandfather. And clinical depression of various severities is a common comorbid condition of AS.
So, now I need to figure out how to tell my doctors they might have got my diagnosis wrong and probably fight the concept that only children can have AS. For some reason, some doctors seem to think that people who were kids before the diagnosis became offical can't have AS. Seeing how AS is on the high end of autism... you can't just grow out of that.
And I'm rambling. So, here's these quizzes just for fun. And my results! No obligation to post yours or anything. But I think it's fun. (Neurotypical results are in brackets)
BAPQ: Autistic/HFA [Neurotypical]
AQ: 41 [0-20]
EQ SQ-R: 3 for EQ and 98 for SQ end result: Extreme Systemizer. [This should be balanced]
EIQ Test: 55 that puts me in the 0.18 percentile. [155-255]
HSP: 16 [14 or less]
I scored a 28 on the Reading the Eyes test meaning that with the low EIQ score I can read faces well enough, but have a hard time doing so in fluid or dynamic situations. [Normal is 20-32]
Aspie Quiz: 149 AS, 61 NT [Should have a high NT and a low AS score]
RAADS-R: 169 [21.8 average for NT people, my wife scored a 38]
In the end it's nice to know why I don't understand social situations, or I'm unable to tell when someone is going to be offended by something I say or ask. It's like trying to speak a foriegn language to me.
"Parlez-vous Francais?"
Umm... Ah... "Je parle Fracias en peu? I think..."
So, to cap my ramble off, here's a little comic Dude, I'm an Aspie!
EDIT: And the first commenter is an ass. If I could act normal, don't you think I would? I realise that everyone lands somewhere on the autusim spectrum, but when it's made it so that I don't have friends, and I hate hanging out with people from work cause they'll just make fun of me... Or when I hate going to church solely because of all the people there that insist on talking to me. Throwing off my schedule makes me meltdown, or come really close. That becomes an impairment, and you should know if you have that impairment.
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